Time slipping away

Time just keeps slipping away faster and faster. I wish I could bottle it up and save it, but that isn't how time works. It seems like just yesterday I was graduating from high school, but its been 24 years since that day. It seems like I just got married, but thats been 22 years ago. It seems like my children were just tiny babies, but my oldest is about to enter her 3rd year of college and my baby's entering his junior year of high school. What have I done with all that time? How much of it have I wasted? Have I cherished each moment, no, sadly I haven't. I look back now and think of all the missed moment, the lost time and it makes me sad. I can't do anything about it now, but what do I do from here. Do I continue to let the time slip away without smelling the roses? I hope not. I want to savor each moment as if it was my last, but still, I find myself letting moments slip like sand through my fingers. It seems like just yesterday I came to Jesus, but that too has been over a decade. How many of the moments God has given me have I wasted? Too many I'm afraid. How many sunsets has he painted on the horizon for me to enjoy did I not even see? How many opportunities to lead other to Him have I let pass me by? How many memories did I not make? How many intimate moments with Him did I walk away from?

I guess I'm being a little sentimental tonight. But I'm also thinking about the things I can do differently in the future. I don't want to miss anymore special moments, with my family, with my friends, with people I don't even know, but especially with God. I have to purposely look for those moments and savor them, treasure them, enjoy them. It's time I started living the way God wants me to, not just wandering around, missing the moments. That's my goal, my vision. To live life for God on purpose. To not let the special moments pass me by unnoticed. To walk the path He's laid out for me with my eyes, my heart, and especially my spirit wide open.

Kim