Its been a really long time........but I'm back, at least for today. So much has happened since I last posted. My job changed, my daughter set her wedding date and my son has a girlfriend. On top of all of that......Christmas has come and passed.
First my job. I am a teaching assistant in a class of children with special needs and I love it. Luckily, I'm still doing that. I had been in the same class for four years, worked with some of the same kids for that long, loved the teacher I was working under and then things changed. I'm not saying change is bad.....but sometimes its hard to go through. I was injured by one of the students in my class and because I already had an artificial knee, the powers that be decided I wasn't safe in that class anymore and almost immediately moved me to a different classroom. I didn't get to tell my students I was moving. Just boom, I was gone. I was very sad, as I had an attachment to these kids. I'm in an autism room now, and its going well, but I still miss my kids. The teacher isn't the same, she loves the kids but is rather scattered in thought which makes my job that much harder. I'm already falling in love with the kids so I know it will all work out.
Now my son. He's a had a girlfriend before, but this is different. The first one was more about "having a girlfriend" this one he really really likes. She came to Christmas Eve with our family and she seems to be really well matched for my son. I'm just not ready for him to be in a serious relationship yet and I'm afraid this one could lead to that. He's 17, so its not like he's too young to be dating. We also have really strict rules about dating, like only group dates, they can never be alone together, if they ride in a car together, there needs to be at least one other person in the car. We really allow more of a courting situation than a dating, but still its hard. Devin has such a tender heart, I'm afraid he's gonna get hurt.....what am I saying, of course he's gonna get hurt, he's a teenager who has a girlfriend. I'm just so not ready for all this growing and changing happening around me.
Last but not least my daughter. April's beau came and asked us for her hand in marriage recently. We knew it would happen.......they've been together for 2 and 1/2 years, I just was hoping it would be a little farther down the line. They've set the date for December 5, 2009. We went out looking at wedding dresses because David's Bridal had there $99 sale. She tried on probably 25 gowns and loved one that was $500 and the top of one $99 one and the bottom of another $99 one. Grandma agreed to put the top and bottom together.......so we bought 2 dresses, but only spent $200. We've got the person to do the cake (for the cost of ingredients) and Grandma's a florist, a good friend is a photographer. So things are moving along pretty well. However, no decision has been made on the location yet. Mark(future son-in-law) and April go to a church here in town and wanted to get married there, however they can't have it on a Saturday there, which April really wants and they're pretty high on cost. So we're looking, but December is a hard time to book locations with the holiday parties that happen then. My baby girl won't be home next Christmas.......she'll be at her own home, decorating her own tree, starting her own traditions. It makes me both happy and sad to think about it. Happy for her, sad for me. She's an awesome young lady and I know its time for her to leave the nest, but the nest is gonna feel mighty empty without her.
I know change means growth and growth is good, but it doesn't always feel so good when you're going through it. I've been rather emotional lately, a bit melancholy. But there is also joy for April, for Devin, for the new adventures of their lives. I remember when I was young and having my first real relationship.......its such a fun exciting time. And when I was planning my wedding, I was giddy with excitement. Momma has to let her baby birds spread their wings........the nest is just going to feel pretty empty. I'm looking forward to more time with my husband, but he works nights, so evenings will be tough. April will be gone and Devin is so busy with his own life.....I guess its time for me to find the next chapter in my own life. Maybe I'll start some projects I've thought about doing in the past like trying my hand at writing. I know as long as I lean on and look towards God, I'll be okay...........and so will they.
I hope you all had a very nice Christmas. It's always a joy to celebrate the birth of our Father, our Saviour. I may be a little down, but I live a very Blessed life and I thank God for it every day.
God Bless you all,
Kim
First my job. I am a teaching assistant in a class of children with special needs and I love it. Luckily, I'm still doing that. I had been in the same class for four years, worked with some of the same kids for that long, loved the teacher I was working under and then things changed. I'm not saying change is bad.....but sometimes its hard to go through. I was injured by one of the students in my class and because I already had an artificial knee, the powers that be decided I wasn't safe in that class anymore and almost immediately moved me to a different classroom. I didn't get to tell my students I was moving. Just boom, I was gone. I was very sad, as I had an attachment to these kids. I'm in an autism room now, and its going well, but I still miss my kids. The teacher isn't the same, she loves the kids but is rather scattered in thought which makes my job that much harder. I'm already falling in love with the kids so I know it will all work out.
Now my son. He's a had a girlfriend before, but this is different. The first one was more about "having a girlfriend" this one he really really likes. She came to Christmas Eve with our family and she seems to be really well matched for my son. I'm just not ready for him to be in a serious relationship yet and I'm afraid this one could lead to that. He's 17, so its not like he's too young to be dating. We also have really strict rules about dating, like only group dates, they can never be alone together, if they ride in a car together, there needs to be at least one other person in the car. We really allow more of a courting situation than a dating, but still its hard. Devin has such a tender heart, I'm afraid he's gonna get hurt.....what am I saying, of course he's gonna get hurt, he's a teenager who has a girlfriend. I'm just so not ready for all this growing and changing happening around me.
Last but not least my daughter. April's beau came and asked us for her hand in marriage recently. We knew it would happen.......they've been together for 2 and 1/2 years, I just was hoping it would be a little farther down the line. They've set the date for December 5, 2009. We went out looking at wedding dresses because David's Bridal had there $99 sale. She tried on probably 25 gowns and loved one that was $500 and the top of one $99 one and the bottom of another $99 one. Grandma agreed to put the top and bottom together.......so we bought 2 dresses, but only spent $200. We've got the person to do the cake (for the cost of ingredients) and Grandma's a florist, a good friend is a photographer. So things are moving along pretty well. However, no decision has been made on the location yet. Mark(future son-in-law) and April go to a church here in town and wanted to get married there, however they can't have it on a Saturday there, which April really wants and they're pretty high on cost. So we're looking, but December is a hard time to book locations with the holiday parties that happen then. My baby girl won't be home next Christmas.......she'll be at her own home, decorating her own tree, starting her own traditions. It makes me both happy and sad to think about it. Happy for her, sad for me. She's an awesome young lady and I know its time for her to leave the nest, but the nest is gonna feel mighty empty without her.
I know change means growth and growth is good, but it doesn't always feel so good when you're going through it. I've been rather emotional lately, a bit melancholy. But there is also joy for April, for Devin, for the new adventures of their lives. I remember when I was young and having my first real relationship.......its such a fun exciting time. And when I was planning my wedding, I was giddy with excitement. Momma has to let her baby birds spread their wings........the nest is just going to feel pretty empty. I'm looking forward to more time with my husband, but he works nights, so evenings will be tough. April will be gone and Devin is so busy with his own life.....I guess its time for me to find the next chapter in my own life. Maybe I'll start some projects I've thought about doing in the past like trying my hand at writing. I know as long as I lean on and look towards God, I'll be okay...........and so will they.
I hope you all had a very nice Christmas. It's always a joy to celebrate the birth of our Father, our Saviour. I may be a little down, but I live a very Blessed life and I thank God for it every day.
God Bless you all,
Kim
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