my plan or God's plan?

I haven't been on in a few days, life has just been incredibly hectic.

A quick update on the day of prayer at our local schools. My family and I arrived at the school I expected to have the largest turnout....and at about 5 minutes before 3pm, we began praying, just me and my family. At first, I felt a little disappointed in the lack of people, but that was just my flesh. Once we joined hands and began to lift our praise and then petitions to God, I felt His Spirit flowing. It was a very hot day, about 105, but while we were praying, I didn't notice. We prayed for about 15 or 20 minutes, then more people came. We joined with them and began laying hands on the school and the Spirit of God opened up the floodgates and flowed over us like rushing water. I know He heard us and I'm expecting some miraculous things to happen.

This experience made me think about why I let my idea of how things should go overshadow God's plans in my life. I pray all the time for God's plan for my life to happen, yet when things don't go the way "I" want, I'm disappointed. My plan, was for there to be an overwhelming number of people at the schools, God's plan was for a few committed people to pray earnestly for our schools. I know His plan is the right one, but so many times I think it's such a bad thing when "my" plans don't happen the way "I" want them too. Right now I'm looking at possibly changing positions withing the school district I work for. I applied for a different position that has more hours and more pay. When I did so, I prayed for it to happen according to God's plan. I'm still waiting to hear about the position and I keep finding myself thinking......"well it doesn't look good" and feeling disappointed about that. But how silly is that. I prayed for God's plan, so whatever happens, I should be excited about, because it means it's God's plan. Why must we always try to take control of everything? I think this is probably my biggest struggle in my Christian walk. I tell God to have His way, for His will to happen, and I mean it when I say it, but 5 minutes later I'm trying to take it back and do it "my" way. You would think I would've learned after all these years that my way is always a mess and God's way is always the right way.

This is what I plan to really work on, letting go and letting God. I've heard that said so many times, but it's time I start walking in it.

Thats all for now.