I can't believe I've just let important things in my life go. I've been so down about my knee situation, I've let important things slip away. I just looked back at how long its been since my last love dare entry. Its not just that I'm not doing entries, its that I've stopped moving forward in my dare. I haven't stopped, I've continued to practice the things I've learned so far, but I haven't progressed. I hate being stagnant and thats how I feel right now. My husband, my marriage and my family deserve better from me. I've continued to work at being patient every day, but I've let my circumstances get in the way and I know I could have done better. Okay, so I'm in pain, so I may have some difficult times up ahead.......SO WHAT!?!?! Its time for me to stop wallowing and get back to living. Why do we do that, why do we let the bumps in the road knock us down? I'm a Christian walking my faith.....but where is my faith when the waters get rough? I know God is in the boat, yet I still worry and fret. You know I hear people talking about how the 'd' is attacking them......but I think most of the time he sits back and laughs cuz I attack my ownself more than he ever could. I want to be the kind of woman that scares the 'd' when I get out of bed not causes him good entertainment. I want to stand up and be that woman.......I'm determined to start being that woman.......the woman God has called me to be. I have everything I need in life, and its time I started to realize that. He is my source, not the doctors, not the politicians, not the people who tell me their my friends and then walk away, not my finances.........He, God Almighty is all I need!
Kim
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