This day is about admitting my own mistakes and asking God and my husband to forgive me for them. This is a process I had already been going through for sometime. There are so many mistakes I've made over the years and as I have grown with God, I've been working with Him, not only to ask for forgiveness, but also to be able to forgive myself. That's a problem I have alot, when I mess up, and I do alot, people around me forgive me, I know God forgives me, but I have a hard time forgiving myself and letting things go. I allow my mistakes to hold me hostage and it affects how I am around others. If we live in guilt, its hard to be a joyful person. This is an area of my life I've been working on and will continue to do so. The thing I will be working hard on as well is in the midst of an argument, stepping back to see if I'm out of line and repenting immediately. I can repent sometime after an event, but to do so immediately and change my attitude in the moment is much more difficult. I know I tend to get defensive and sometimes say things I wish I hadn't later, but in the moment I'm selfish and proud, but I need to be humble and loving. I will continue to work in that area as well. I'm so glad Jim has chosen to love me all these years even though I know there are many times I'm not too loveable. I will conciously make the effort to admit my wrongs immediately and change my attitude from selfish to humble.
Kim
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