I had to think a lot about todays dare. Life is so busy and I'm supposed find areas where I need to add margin to my schedule. What I thought of was that I need to purpose some 1 on 1 time with my husband on the weekend. We don't really see each other at all during the week so we have to make more effort on the weekends. I've decided to stop packing every weekend with things that need to get done and do something fun with Jim. On top of that I have decided to not rush our conversations on the phone during the week. I'm usually tired by the time I can call him based on his work schedule and I am thinking more about how tired I am than what we're talking about. I need to focus that time on him.
Then the second part of the dare was to list any wrong motivations that I need to release from my life. I think the biggest motivation I need to release is the motivation to always be right. I sometimes argue a point to the place where I don't even remember what we're arguing about because he still hasn't agreed with me. How ridiculous is that? I also realize that I sometimes try to manipulate Jim into doing what I want him to instead of just coming out and asking him. I hint, I guilt, I leave clues that I think he should understand, then when he doesn't do it, I blame him, when in reality its my fault because I didn't tell him what I wanted.
I really hope I can do better in these areas. I know Jim deserves for me to be better and even if he didn't, I want to do it because I love him.
Kim
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