but somewhere inside, I think my spirit does. I have a strong faith. I believe God is in control. I know God sees a bigger picture than I do. I know all of this, but my heart and mind still have a hard time when death comes knocking. I know all the quotes, I know all the scriptures, but none of it makes the pain go away.
A dear friend and coworker, one of the most amazing women I've ever known, a woman with a heart for everyone she meets and a love that I hope one day I can show, is losing her battle.
She was diagnosed with leison on her brain(4 of them) a few months back. There was hope. She has completed her treatments and was very ill, unable to keep food down. They found her gallbladder was enlarged and decided to take it out. What they didn't know was that it was enlarged due to the overwhelming amount of cancer inside and around it. There's nothing more the doctors can do for her. This all began in October, 3 months ago and now they say her time is almost up. She's only a little older than me with child that is not yet raised. She has touched everyone who knows her with love and joy. I just want to scream WHY!!!!!!!!HOW CAN IT HAPPEN LIKE THIS!?!?!?!?! I will continue to hold out for a miracle. At the same time, I know the current reality. My heart aches, my mind is spinning out of control, but my spirit will stay strong. My faith will not be shaken.
Please pray for my friend, pray for her family and pray for me. I'm choosing to not post her name for her privacy, but God will know who you are praying for. He knows everything. He knows our pain and He will heal the ache.
Thank you,
Kim
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