but somewhere inside, I think my spirit does. I have a strong faith. I believe God is in control. I know God sees a bigger picture than I do. I know all of this, but my heart and mind still have a hard time when death comes knocking. I know all the quotes, I know all the scriptures, but none of it makes the pain go away.
A dear friend and coworker, one of the most amazing women I've ever known, a woman with a heart for everyone she meets and a love that I hope one day I can show, is losing her battle.
She was diagnosed with leison on her brain(4 of them) a few months back. There was hope. She has completed her treatments and was very ill, unable to keep food down. They found her gallbladder was enlarged and decided to take it out. What they didn't know was that it was enlarged due to the overwhelming amount of cancer inside and around it. There's nothing more the doctors can do for her. This all began in October, 3 months ago and now they say her time is almost up. She's only a little older than me with child that is not yet raised. She has touched everyone who knows her with love and joy. I just want to scream WHY!!!!!!!!HOW CAN IT HAPPEN LIKE THIS!?!?!?!?! I will continue to hold out for a miracle. At the same time, I know the current reality. My heart aches, my mind is spinning out of control, but my spirit will stay strong. My faith will not be shaken.
Please pray for my friend, pray for her family and pray for me. I'm choosing to not post her name for her privacy, but God will know who you are praying for. He knows everything. He knows our pain and He will heal the ache.
Thank you,
Kim
Thursday, January 29, 2009
Saturday, January 10, 2009
Random part 2
A couple of posts ago I started a list of 100 random things about me……and I only made it to 50. So here is the rest of the story…..haha
51. I’m goofy…….I am…..sometimes I’m just downright goofy for no apparent reason and it’s a blast. I think we should all be goofy more often.
52. I love to read, but wish I had more time to do it.
53. I was captain of the drill team in high school. It was so much fun choreographing all of the dances.
54. I would rather do almost anything to avoid cleaning the house, yet it must get done.
55. I make a really good broccoli cheddar soup.
56. I’ve had my right knee replaced twice….sigh
57. God is my best friend…..woohoo
58. I cannot stand to wear toe socks……..but I think toe rings are really cute.
59. I make signs for all of my kids’ accomplishments and post them on their bedroom doors.
60. My thumbs are double jointed.
61. I believe every word of the Bible is true.
62. Lavendar roses smell really pretty.
63. I don’t like to do jigsaw puzzles unless its with the mouse on the computer at jigzone.com
64. Comic Sans is the greatest font
65. My great great aunt Beryl taught me to macramé years ago, but I can’t do it anymore. It created the coolest memories for me though. I miss her.
66. My favorite ride at
67. Carnival corn dogs are awesome.
68. So are funnel cakes and beer battered fries.
69. I choose not to drink alcohol…..mostly for 2 reasons, there was alcoholism in my family and when I did drink……I acted stupid.
70. When I was a kid I learned how to play the spoons….doubt I could now
71. We got the game Farkle for Christmas and its really fun
72. I make way too much food if I’m making for any kind of gathering……but I make sure nobody goes away hungry.
73. I don’t like video games.
74. One of my favorite memories was making divinity with my Mom and Grandma.
75. I used to be a foster parent……..many moons ago.
76. I don’t like to wear shoes….and in the summer I don’t much.
77. My husband is the greatest love of my life.
78. I was really shy when I was younger…….and if you know me now you know how hard that is to believe…..but its true.
79. I am the most blessed person in the world.
80. I’m not very crafty.
81. I want to visit
82. The house I live in is the house my grandparents bought brand new in 1942.
83. I always said I wanted to live long enough to celebrate my 100th anniversary with my husband…….but as I get older, I’m not sure I want to live quite that long. I’ll settle for 75th.
84. When I was in middle school I did more chin ups than most of the guys in my class, now I don’t know as I could do even 1, and I don’t plan on finding out.
85. I think we should all go to the park and go down the slide and swing more often.
86. I love to laugh……..some people say I laugh like a hyena…..but I don’t think so.
87. I have huge feet.
88. Crayons are a really cool invention.
89. Time goes way too fast.
90. Tigger is my favorite character from Winnie the Pooh
91. I drank a fly once……..don’t try it, it was gross……..and yes it was an accident
92. I love to feel the warm sand between my toes.
93. I think life should have do overs
94. I’m afraid of thunder and lightening…….when I was a kid, my mom told me if I wore my tennis shoes I’d be grounded and the lightening couldn’t get me…….so I’d insist on wearing my tennis shoes to bed anytime there was a storm.
95. I think life should be lived out loud.
96. I prefer dark chocolate to milk
97. I would love to swim with a dolphin someday.
98. I prefer to sleep in flannel sheets even in the summertime
99. I recently tried chocolate covered sunflower seeds…….they’re different, but they’re good.
100. I loved being pregnant…..I know most women don’t…..but I soooo loved every minute of it.
Wow……its hard to come up with 100 random things about yourself……..try it sometime.
See you next time,
Kim
Thursday, January 8, 2009
New Year's Resolutions
Why do we do this to ourselves? Set resolutions that are nearly impossible to obtain and then when we can't complete the resolution, we beat ourselves up forever over it. We all have such good intentions.......but then life happens. Then we let ourselves get depressed because we didn't follow through.
I read somewhere that the only good resolutions are those that we are truly capable of achieving. I'm all for goal setting, but with a goal we seem to be able to work at it longer until we can see it start to happen. With resolutions......we must complete it within that year or we're a failure. And most of us feel like a failure after only a month or less.
Instead of lose 50 pounds.....how about I will give up eating beef tongue....now that one I can achieve. Instead of clean my house everyday.....how about at least one day in the next year my house will look clean. Or instead of exercise everyday........get out of bed everyday. I know I know.........I'm setting my sights too low. But don't we usually set them a little too high? I think there has to be some middle ground here.
All kidding aside........I do have one resolution, not just for this year, but from now on. I know I may not always achieve it, but instead of making it a New Year's resolution, I'm going to make it a new resolution every morning when I awake. It may be the same resolution, but as long as I look at as new each day......maybe I'll continue to focus on it every day. My resolution comes from one of those corny sayings you see on a church reader board, yet it really struck a nerve with me. Peace on earth and I resolve to make it start with me. I'm going to work harder at not being grumpy or obstinate..........especially with my family. I want to be a person who seeks for peace and love in every situation. I no longer want to be a person who causes a ruckus.......but who brings everyone back together. As my children grow up, I realize how much time I've wasted arguing over stupid little things, pouting because I didn't like the way things turned out, or making others feel bad because my feelings were hurt. I want our time together to be full of peace and joy and love.
That's my resolution.......I know I may not always live up to it.........and that's okay, because tomorrow I'll make the same resolution and it starts all over again. Isn't that like how it is with God, we mess up and His blood washes us up and we get to start over again? So instead of beating ourselves up over not achieving our resolutions, let's let God clean us up and give us another chance. May all of you find forgiveness for yourselves as you venture towards the resolutions you've set for yourselves this year and always.
God Bless,
Kim
I read somewhere that the only good resolutions are those that we are truly capable of achieving. I'm all for goal setting, but with a goal we seem to be able to work at it longer until we can see it start to happen. With resolutions......we must complete it within that year or we're a failure. And most of us feel like a failure after only a month or less.
Instead of lose 50 pounds.....how about I will give up eating beef tongue....now that one I can achieve. Instead of clean my house everyday.....how about at least one day in the next year my house will look clean. Or instead of exercise everyday........get out of bed everyday. I know I know.........I'm setting my sights too low. But don't we usually set them a little too high? I think there has to be some middle ground here.
All kidding aside........I do have one resolution, not just for this year, but from now on. I know I may not always achieve it, but instead of making it a New Year's resolution, I'm going to make it a new resolution every morning when I awake. It may be the same resolution, but as long as I look at as new each day......maybe I'll continue to focus on it every day. My resolution comes from one of those corny sayings you see on a church reader board, yet it really struck a nerve with me. Peace on earth and I resolve to make it start with me. I'm going to work harder at not being grumpy or obstinate..........especially with my family. I want to be a person who seeks for peace and love in every situation. I no longer want to be a person who causes a ruckus.......but who brings everyone back together. As my children grow up, I realize how much time I've wasted arguing over stupid little things, pouting because I didn't like the way things turned out, or making others feel bad because my feelings were hurt. I want our time together to be full of peace and joy and love.
That's my resolution.......I know I may not always live up to it.........and that's okay, because tomorrow I'll make the same resolution and it starts all over again. Isn't that like how it is with God, we mess up and His blood washes us up and we get to start over again? So instead of beating ourselves up over not achieving our resolutions, let's let God clean us up and give us another chance. May all of you find forgiveness for yourselves as you venture towards the resolutions you've set for yourselves this year and always.
God Bless,
Kim
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